Suicide ~ THINk abouT iT…


Koibitou! I am leaving’ I said as soon as I reached the home.

Leaving, at this time of the night?’ she said with a puzzled look. Nodding my head, I said, ‘To a nightclub, to celebrate one of our colleagues birthday and to taste different flavors of girls

If we live in London that doesn’t mean you have to follow Western culture, still you have to value our culture and should remember that you have a wife who loves you all day and night’ she said angrily, ‘I do remember it but still I love to taste different flavours, bye bye Isha.’ I said before locking the door.


11:00 PM ~ WTF! He wants to taste different flavors of girls just within three months of our marriage life. I am going mad; I gazed at the mirror for an hour grumbling, ‘Am I not looking good?’ Later I realized I forgot to have my dinner also and now I do not have mood to go out of this room because I have heard very bad things about clubs and…

12:30 ~ WTF! Why I am so worried? I am sure he will never do such type of non-sense but who knows how he will react after consuming alcohol. I cannot think of him with some other girls, I am going mad.

02:30 ~ WTF! He is not even picking my call. Why the hell he married me? Is he with some girls doing some non-sense things? Oh my God, my head is aching.

03:00 ~ WTF! I cannot handle this pressure at all and I do not want to. What if he had xxx with some girl after boozing a lot and if it happens, I cannot imagine a life with him.

04:00 ~ That’s it… I am sure he is ditching my life that is why he is not even picking my 100th call also and I cannot compromise on this. Let me die…

04:30 ~ Should I commit suicide? Is he playing with me or ditching my life? Ahhhhhhh……………

04:45 ~ I want to die… I should…
04:51 ~ Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh… It is better to die but…

04:55 ~ I should call anyone of my friend before taking any stupid decisions, let me call Sangee,

Sangee….
‘Hey… How are you’ she said
‘Ok….’ ‘Hey… Is something wrong with you?’ she said,
Everything… I thought I should commit suicide but I do not have guts to do it. I want to live.
Are you nuts? Don’t speak like a stupid and don’t even think of such stupid things.
I am not so stupid
Why the hell you want to? Just give the phone to your hubby.’ She shouted like a banshee.
He is sleeping. Listen, I won’t do such stupid things, I promise and please don’t tell this to anyone, please.
No, I am not going to believe you. Please give the phone to your hubby.’ She insisted,
Hey… I am fine idiot.
I am very much worried about you. Please, please don’t try to be stupid.
Sure. I won’t be, Bye.

How can I say her that he is sleeping or doing some non-sense with someone else in a nightclub? I closed my eyes to thank God because I did the right thing otherwise I would have been dead now. Let me try to sleep or at least to close my eyes.


Oops, it is five in the morning and I suppose she should be sleeping peacefully, so l opened the door without making any noise. I kept my things in the sofa, took a fresh bathe, before entering the bedroom.

Hey Koibitou! What made you to wake up so early?’ I said, but there was no response from her.

Hey, are you ok?’ First, I said carelessly, later I noticed her sleepless eyes. ‘Isha, are you ok dear. Did you sleep properly?’ I said, ‘Hannn’ she said…

What’s wrong with you?’ I said touching her shoulder, ‘Everything… Please don’t touch me, please’ she shouted…

WTF!’ I said,

Yeah! WTF and why the fuck you want to touch me? Anyhow you want to taste different flavors right’ she shouted,

Are you nuts?’ I said, ‘I am, that’s why I married you.’ she shouted with tears.

‘You are’ I shouted angrily, ‘I am… I am…’ she cried. I went to bed ignoring her because if I speak even a word more she may shout like anything.

I as usual woke up thinking she was sleeping next to me but she was not. I started to shiver so searched in all the places other than kitchen but later found her cooking in the kitchen, so felt relaxed.

Good Morning!’ I said,
Good Morning. Are your friends coming for lunch?’ she said with so much of hatred.

Yes’, I frowned, left the kitchen without helping her in cooking. As planned, my friends reached my home on time and they were cracking jokes. All of a sudden, one of my friends started teasing me, ‘Why did you come to nightclub? Just to stand in one corner and watch us enjoying, instead you would have stayed in your home itself’ everyone laughed.

What he was doing in the corner?’ Isha asked with so much of curiosity.

He didn’t do anything that is our biggest worry. You know what, a completely drunk pretty girl came to him and asked ‘Are you my boy friend?’ he is answering ‘No, I am not’. What an idiot you are? And you are not supposed to love your wife to that extent dude’, everyone laughed at me and it continued until they started from my house.

I am sorry dear. I am sorry, please.’ she said as soon as my friends left our place.

I don’t want to hear a single word from a person who failed to trust me.’ I frowned at her.

But… Please….’, ‘I don’t want to hear a single word from you,’ I frowned once again at her. She pushed me on the bed, sat on me and said, ‘Please hubby… Forgive me…

I pushed her down shouting, ‘Get lost….’ loudly, ‘but, I love you’ in silence.

I should have committed suicide. Why the fuck I called her?’ she said in disgust.

What did you say?’ I stressed my words,

Sorry, I was not able to handle the stress so I about to hang myself but luckily I called my friend Sangee’ she said in a low tone.

On hearing those words, blood rushed to my brain instantly and I slapped her with huge power. ‘Are you nuts? Don’t you know the value of life?’ I shouted like a banshee but she did not utter a single word and that ignited me.

I am leaving this awful world, Good Bye”, I text her friend, and changed the profile to silent mode. She was completely shocked on seeing this and said, ‘Hubby, don’t play like this. I am afraid.

I laughed, ‘Just because I said I want to taste different flavors you want to commit suicide? Are you nuts’ I shouted, ‘No… No… I dialed your number many times but you were not picking my call, that’s why.’ She said in a pleading tone.

Don’t you know this is my office number?’ ‘No… I didn’t realize it….’ she said. ‘The point is not about picking your call or you accidentally called the other number, but, tell me, why the hell you want to commit suicide?’ I shouted.

No… No… I actually’… ‘Stop, I will fill full your desire but don’t shout.’ I said like a haunted human being and in no time I tied her legs with clothe, she look frightened so started to plead me but I went ahead and tied her hands behind her back.

Why are you looking so frightened? Don’t be so I am just helping you to commit suicide.’ I said like a human devil. She stated to cry, and said, ‘Please don’t act like a stupid. I want to live with you, please.’ I was least bothered on what she was saying and went ahead, rolled a chair inside our room. She started to shout, ‘please leave me… Please leave me….’, so to stop her shouting I kissed her. In the mean time I took a towel, inserted inside her mouth and said, ‘Well, that was our last kiss baby. Bye… Bye….

I sat in the chair like an EVIL saying, ‘If you die in another ten minutes then time will be 4 PM, and I will inform your parents by 6 PM, and other stuffs will be over by tomorrow. 16th day, 3 months and after a year I can go for another marriage but I am not sure whether I am fortunate to find a beautiful intelligent girl like you but let’s see… So everything is set,’ I said, lifted her, and made her to stand on the chair.

Ok… Noted, come down dear’ I said, ‘mm. mm. mm.’ She was trying to say something, ‘what?’ I said and removed the towel from her mouth.

Please… please, please, please, please,’ she said, ‘say something else’ I said, ‘please, I want to live with you.’ She said.

Then why did you decided to commit suicide yesterday night?’ I shouted, ‘That’s a stupid decision but I didn’t Na’ she pleaded, ‘Well you didn’t, but if you may try the same in the near future. So it is better if I do the honors. What say?’ I said.

I won’t, please believe me, I won’t. I trust you and more than that I love you so much.’ She pleaded like anything. I smiled, untied her hands, so, she too smiled, but I laughed like a DEVIL and cross-tied her hands between her legs so that she cannot stand, walk or even move, and inserted the towel inside her mouth. She started to shiver as if she is having a high fever but I care a damn. I went to the wardrobe, picked a saree, and said, ‘Is this the wedding saree?’ She nodded her head.

‘How lucky I am to hang myself in my wife’s wedding saree.’ I said, she became horrified on hearing me. ‘Stay happy! I am not going to kill you because I love you to that extent but I want to teach you how miserable one’s life will be if they have to live without their loved ones. How hard is to leave one’s close relations in the name of suicide? How hurting it will be when our loved one is no more in this world.’ I said, ‘mm… mm… .’ she was trying to burst out her feelings, ‘and this should be a lesson to all stupid’s who end their life in the name of suicide. Everyone should learn how hurting it is to live without their special ones and the sufferings of a father, brother, sister, wife, lover, any, and the most priceless mom in your words. A hurt is a hurt, a life is a life, and you can die only once, then no words….’ I said, ‘mm…mmm….’ she was trying to burst out, I removed the cloth from her mouth, ‘please… Please… Please, please don’t do this to me. I cannot imagine a life without you, please, I understood how stupid is to commit suicide, please don’t leave me’ she cried, I kissed on her forehead and inserted the cloth once again into her mouth. I went back to the chair to prepare things to hang myself, and when everything is set, I said, ‘Love you Koibitou! Enjoy your hubby’s suicide.’

The moment I said those words she started crawling herself towards the chair. I know how hard it is to move when your hands and legs are tied in-between but she was crawling, OMG, is this the power of love. I ran to her, un-tied her hands, legs, removed cloth from her mouth and kissed her like anything saying, ‘How can I leave you alone idiot?’ She did not speak a word or moved out of my hold, and her breathe conveyed she wants to live with me forever. I said, ‘I love you so much idiot. I cannot live without you. Please, please never ever think of such stupid things, please and I didn’t message your friend’

‘I love you so much hubby’ she said, I smiled and floated her on the bed to start my sweet romance.

Suddenly someone tapped on my shoulder saying, ‘Enough of dreaming buddy, the washing machine has completed washing the clothes. Go and take it out ’, Sumit said, Oh! Only a dream but a thoughtful dream! Moreover, I would love to share this dream to my blogging friends as well, not just as a contest post but also as an awareness post for stupid people who commit suicide. As they say, ‘It is better to lose one minute in life than to lose life in one minute’, please think before taking any stupid decisions because it is going to hurt not only your loved ones but also your precious mom who carried you into this world with all love and care.

THINk abouT iT.. If I get two extra hours a day, if not in a day, at least once or twice in a week like this, it may help me to write thoughtful stories 🙂

PS: I as a part of IndiBlogger, ‘Surf Excel Matic GetSmartContest, have published this post. The contest is about, “Surf Excel Matic is smart enough to get rid of stains while your clothes are inside your washing machine, so you don’t have to spend your precious time doing it separately. Let the detergent do the washing, while you spend time with your family! and If you like it and if you care for someone special in this world, share this post on your FB wall, promote it on Indi or share it anywhere on the web as you wish. Also do leave your footprints to add a smile to my face..

Image Credits ~ Google Images ~ Just to create a false impression ~ 🙂

0 Replies to “Suicide ~ THINk abouT iT…”

  1. Woof! That was intense. A whole story just to say in the end that I would like to write thoughtful stories in those extra 2 hours.

    Never really thought you would write such high intensity and heavy-hearted stuff. very good message conveyed 🙂

    The wand of romance unleashes a thriller.

    Good luck buddy!

  2. I have no words to tell you that how amazing you are!
    The whole story moved with a suspense..that's what a reader enjoy while reading.
    I loved the way you ended the story and also the worth-full message you conveyed through this post.. 🙂

    I'm confident and sure, you're going to win the contest with this post 😀
    SmileS and Best Wishes !!

  3. Ah! Life… Wish one could embrace it forever! Turn two hours into 2 decades… A nicely composed ripost… Had my heart thumping while reading it… good to see a nicely crafted short story… 🙂 All the best

  4. @ Anukriti Sharma

    Ah! Life… Wish one could embrace it forever! Turn two hours into 2 decades… A nicely composed ripost… Had my heart thumping while reading it… good to see a nicely crafted short story… 🙂 All the best

    Wow, Anukriti is here! Welcome! Thank you thank you and I am super glad to read your comments.. Yay.. Happy.. Thanks again for your wishes..

    Someone is Special

  5. @ Erratic Thoughts

    Exceptional…the message…the warmth in your words…the emotion…
    Just brilliant writing!
    I endorse your post with all my might…:):)

    Welcome to Few Miles… Glad you felt it brilliant.. Happy Man you know.. I thank you so so much for your sweet comment.. I am flying..

    Someone is Special

  6. @ Simran

    I have no words to tell you that how amazing you are!
    The whole story moved with a suspense..that's what a reader enjoy while reading.
    I loved the way you ended the story and also the worth-full message you conveyed through this post.. 🙂

    I'm confident and sure, you're going to win the contest with this post 😀
    SmileS and Best Wishes !!

    Hey Little One, I have won many hearts with this post, so I am very very happy and flying.. and thank you so much for your wishes, but it is better not to count chickens before they actually hatch, what say? Samsung post was an example for it na..

    Glad you loved the message, I would have been happy if you shared it in your FB wall too 🙂

    Happy Happy Happy 🙂

    Someone is Special

  7. @ Animesh Ganguly

    Woof! That was intense. A whole story just to say in the end that I would like to write thoughtful stories in those extra 2 hours.

    Never really thought you would write such high intensity and heavy-hearted stuff. very good message conveyed 🙂

    The wand of romance unleashes a thriller.

    Good luck buddy!

    OMG, I hope I finally satisfied Animesh, do I? Thank you so much for your comment buddy, I am very very happy, indeed flying, actually on Cloud Nine..

    Glad my message reached many people, will be happy if I reach many more hearts..

    and your last line, thank you so much buddy..

    Someone is Special

  8. There were some parts that disturbed me a lot…not the thought of committing suicide though ~ that part when he was role playing… It was such an evil thought.

    You asked me how I felt about the story…It was so close to reality esp. that my colleagues and I just witnessed a crime scene near our work building. A woman jumped out of the nth floor because her husband left her… geez, Saravana.

    There was a similar incident that happened a few years ago in my parish…a man shot himself dead infront of the altar. The church was closed for many weeks…

    I oftentimes ask how people could go overboard on their emotions…but it is such.

    A person in his/her right mind wouldn't have the guts to do it…that means, that person must've been suffering from depression. It would be good to stay with this person and help him/her out.

    What keeps me sane from so much pain is the presence of God and of loving people.

  9. Hello.
    WoW! Saravana, you have reached a whole new level with your storytelling!

    Just one minor critique point, if I may…I was a little concerned with the husband's brutality. I think he could have handled things without so much force.

    That was some mighty dream though!
    Powerful message & your image speaks for itself.
    Nicely done, my friend!
    All the best with the competition too.
    Thanks for sharing.

    I have a gift for you as well.
    Please feel free to claim it here

  10. @ thestorytellerslostpages

    Aha, I see you're a tamilian, or atleast you know tamil 🙂
    I'm a tamilian, but I neither read nor write tamil 😛

    This post was tense, till the end, and as a competitor, I wish you all the best 🙂

    PS, could you read my entry? And if you like it, vote for it? I'd be really grateful 🙂

    http://www.indiblogger.in/indipost.php?post=90039

    Welcome to Few Miles.. Of course I am from Tamil Nadu, I can read, write and recite poems as well in Tamil .

    Glad you felt it tense till the end, and thank you so much for the wishes..

    I will visit your posts asap..

    Someone is Special

  11. @ Andy

    I am on Cloud Nine or whatever the place that is in the top.. Happy Happy, I am flying Andy…

    Thank you so much for the critique, but the character needs to be brutal to show how much he loves his girl. and yeah what a dream.. Hmm..

    Glad you felt it powerful and that's what I want.. Thank you thank you so much for the wishes, awards and for the gifts.. Happy…

    Someone is Special

  12. I donno why your every post is so emotional. Its sad, emotional post. Get rid of all destructive thoughts. Your posts are so deep and touching, you write well, but its really sad to read sad things all time. You make readers cry. It was nice post, I would love to read happy post. Next time I hope to read happy one 🙂 Take care, God bless 🙂

  13. hey,

    the story was good but the conversations could have been separated with proper spaces, I sometimes misjudged if it was the husband or the wife speaking.

    You have a good nag of creating fictions. 🙂

  14. @ Shreya

    I donno why your every post is so emotional. Its sad, emotional post. Get rid of all destructive thoughts. Your posts are so deep and touching, you write well, but its really sad to read sad things all time. You make readers cry. It was nice post, I would love to read happy post. Next time I hope to read happy one 🙂 Take care, God bless 🙂

    Hmm Shreya, sad, sad.. Hmm.. Oops only the recent posts are so but I used to write happy posts only.. I want to convey a happy message that's the reason for this.. Hope you like it.. 🙂

    Someone is Special

  15. @ Anurag

    hey,

    the story was good but the conversations could have been separated with proper spaces, I sometimes misjudged if it was the husband or the wife speaking.

    You have a good nag of creating fictions. 🙂

    Sorry for the formatting issue and I am super glad that yo loved the story..

    Happy Happy Happy..

    Someone is Special

  16. This is the most captivating blog I have read till date..:) It was just awesome. Great man…:) Intensity at first was taken over by laughter at the end….:) All the Best, keep Blogging…:).

  17. Trust is so important in a relationship.

    Interesting read, Saravana.

    Nowadays there are news headlines about students committing suicide because their parents told them to work hard and for other idiotic reasons. So – even though what you wrote here is a dream I won't be surprised if it were real.

    Cheers!

  18. SIS, you may not like my comment but here goes:
    'Stupid people committing suicide?'- People who commit suicide are not stupid, SIS.. this girl was stupid because she was thinking of suicide on such a small thing – trivial matter – nothing was confirmed.. that the boy was cheating her. – she hadnt caught him red-handed.. just one statement of his, and her imagination did the rest of the mountain out of a molehill.. so she needs to get her mind checked as this kind of behaviour is immature and childish.
    People who commit suicide are pushed to the brink due to situations in life.. many times, recurring situations that push them into depression.
    Depression is a disease and needs to be cured.

    Somehow, I don't quite agree with the story here. 🙁

  19. @ Arti

    A very tight gripping read… drama, emotion, suspense… the story had it all to get me hooked! Brilliant, Good Luck 🙂

    Thank you so much Arti, and welcome to Few Miles.. Glad you felt it brilliant.. Happy Man.. and thanks again for your wishes..

    Someone is Special

  20. @ Prashanth

    This is the most captivating blog I have read till date..:) It was just awesome. Great man…:) Intensity at first was taken over by laughter at the end….:) All the Best, keep Blogging…:).

    Prashanth, Welcome to Few Miles.. It is my pleasure to read your encouraging words.. Happy Man.. Smiling.. Do keep visiting..

    Someone is Special

  21. @ Vidya Sury

    Trust is so important in a relationship.

    Interesting read, Saravana.

    Nowadays there are news headlines about students committing suicide because their parents told them to work hard and for other idiotic reasons. So – even though what you wrote here is a dream I won't be surprised if it were real.

    Cheers!

    Vidya Sury, Thank you so much.. I am indeed happy to read your comment and this post is a food for thought for people who commits suicide, and it may be stupid or it may not be stupid reasons but according to me suicide itself a stupidity..

    Someone is Special

  22. @ Punam

    SIS, you may not like my comment but here goes:
    'Stupid people committing suicide?'- People who commit suicide are not stupid, SIS.. this girl was stupid because she was thinking of suicide on such a small thing – trivial matter – nothing was confirmed.. that the boy was cheating her. – she hadnt caught him red-handed.. just one statement of his, and her imagination did the rest of the mountain out of a molehill.. so she needs to get her mind checked as this kind of behaviour is immature and childish.
    People who commit suicide are pushed to the brink due to situations in life.. many times, recurring situations that push them into depression.
    Depression is a disease and needs to be cured.

    Somehow, I don't quite agree with the story here. 🙁

    Punam, the point is not about the girl here but about the people who commits suicide for so called reasons, and stupid according to me.. and as you said they are pushed to such situations but my point is why to take that stupidity? Feel free, live free.. enjoy your life..

    Someone is Special

  23. You are one writer…who is so smart and creative in using right words, colors of emotions and perfect blend of awareness!!

    Truly appreciate the way your have brought this post together!

    ummmm…sometimes..good, nice, brilliant…words are not enough to express and adore the amazing creative spark!

    SUPER LIKE IT!
    ~Keep the Spark ALive..

  24. Can't stop smiling after the second half… That was the real "Saravgiri"… This one is my new favorite now… Cho cho cho sweet and beautifully potraited… Loved it like anything… I am glad I read it before sleeping… now may be I too had a sweet and creative dream like this… And last but not the least "A beautiful message is conveyed" God Bless you SIS… Keep thrilling…. 🙂

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